Saturday, November 24, 2007

Post-thanksgiving Reflections

The past couple months have been such a blur! I can't believe that the quarter is almost done. After my first 10 weeks of full-time ministry, there's a lot I have to reflect on.

Some highlights of the past couple months:
-I started leading a sophomore girl Bible study in the dorms
-Epic (Asian American ministry) is up and running
-We had our annual UCLA Fall Retreat
-A girl received Christ at Fall Retreat!!!! :)
-I went to an intern briefing in Lake Arrowhead for all the new CCC interns in our region
-We had the Crossroads Conference for juniors and seniors in our region to help them make Biblical decisions about their futures

I'm still feeling like I am getting used to everything. I am not sure if I know what I'm doing!
All I know is that in my heart I long to see people grasp who Jesus is fully and completely, to see His love and His glory revealed through the cross. I desire to see Him exalted among UCLA students. There's nothing better than seeing the students that I meet with grow in their relationships with Christ! I love discipleship, especially when students are so eager and hungry to learn! It makes teaching so much easier.

However, I have the aching sense that I may not be doing all that I can do. I want to be ministering not just to Christians, but to those who don't know Christ, or perhaps have never heard the gospel fully. I love seeing the girls that I'm meeting with in CCC share their faith, and in a way this is even more encouraging - to see the people I am pouring into pour into others. Yet at the start of this year I felt like God had put the Asian community on my heart, and I am still trying to figure out what it looks like to reach out to them. I don't want to just preach the gospel, but to truly live it. Part of me feels that the reason why I haven't seen much happen is my fear of failure if I risked a lot to step out in faith. Please pray for me as I consider and pray about what the Lord might lead me to do, and that I wouldn't fear man or any human thing above fearing the Lord and obeying Him!

One thing that I am looking forward to is hearing from the Epic national team about where I will be going this summer! I can't wait to see where I might be sent, and I'm so excited to take students with me to do cross-cultural ministry! I'll keep you updated when I hear back in a few weeks.

Please send me any prayer requests that you have! I would love to be praying for you.